Mass Atonics
BY: Robert Robinson III
Based on true events.
For: K.T
( I miss you! )
Life is hard. Its wear how things go. I remember that life was easer when I was a kid. Now it’s so hard. I wish things where easier. If life was easy I would be a lot happier.
I think a happy life is an easy life. Life is hard when you’re unhappy. Being unhappy really sucks a lot. My life sucks most of the time. I do my best to make it not suck. But there is only so much you can do.
The best thing to do is just keep as dizzy as you can to keep your mind happy.
The worse thing you can do its sit around board.
I enjoy going out bike riding.
I like riding my bike when I was a kid.
My earliest memory is of riding my bike. It was cool it had a banana seat and was so sweet. I would ride it around the block and wave to the cute girls on the block.
I would say that the best thing to do is to find a friend or someone to call you once or twice a week. A human to bond with or at lest someone to know.
I have talked to telemarketers before as if they where friends.
But that’s really a low point if you’re doing that then go out and make some friends!!!
I have female friends. I enjoy hanging out with females as friends.
I enjoy females known as “Big Beautiful Woman”.
That is a woman that is “Plus Sized”.
I don’t knot know why I enjoy this but it is what I enjoy.
I like woman’s hair. I like to brush my girlfriends hair. I like and love to stroke my girlfriend’s hair. She is a big girl. She is a cute big girl. Her hair is long all the way down to he butt. Stroking her hair feels good. Stroking her hair feels so good her hair feels like silk when I stroke it. Long silky hair feels so good to stroke. Her hair turns me on so much. Stroking her hair feel so good. Stroking her hair turns me on so much. I love to smell her hair. Stroking her hair and smelling it turns me on so much. I will cuddle there all night stroking her hair. She puts it in a ponytail to sleep. She wears a ponytail a lot. I like her ponytail. I get my hands on it as much as I can. I love it and I love her… But don’t tell her that… it’s a secret… but I think she knows it anyways… she is an angle. A sexy angle. A sexy longhaired angle. She gave me a teddy bear to hug. Its is for when she’s not around to cuddle with me. It’s cute. It’s so darn cute. I put it on my headboard because she was around to cuddle with. It has a little baseball cap on its head. It sat up on my headboard being un-cuddled and hiding a secret for a month. A really neat and cute and kind of sexy secret. There it was hiding it under its baseball cap. Under its cute little hat it had hidden a secret. My girlfriend had to go to Boston mass with her mom and dad.
It was for two weeks. So I was alone and it was time to go to sleep. I was in my apartment… I had not meet the people my girlfriends parents let he live at. So I had to be by myself! I was in bed all-alone. I did not like being in bed alone. I remembered the teddy bear and got her off my headboard and gave her a big long hug. It was so cute. When I had to get up to go to the bathroom I did not bring her with me. But when I got back into bed I saw that the baseball cap had moved a little. It turned out that it could come off. Under the baseball cap was hair! Long brown hair down to the teddy bears butt. It was fake hair. It was not human hair. But it was long and cute and silky. A teddy bear with long silky hair that you can hide under a baseball cap. It’s so darn cute and oddly kind of sexy hugging that cute longhaired teddy bear. I hugged it and stroked its hair till I feel asleep. It was grate! But it is a lot grater cuddling with my girlfriend and stoking her long hair. My girlfriend is a better teddy bear. She is fun to hug and cuddle. My girlfriend and me love to sit and watch television shows and cuddle. That makes me so happy. She lives one town over with homosexual couples that are her roommates. She has her own room… the 4 of use ride around in their car. I cuddle with my girlfriend in the back seat. I like car rides! I like them like as much as dogs like car rides. I’m kind of like a dog. I like car rides and to be hugged and cuddled and i'm a good boy. If I were a dog I would be a husky. I have always wanted to be a husky. That would be a cool thing to be. My name would be Leslie. I would be white and gray with blue eyes. I would be a good husky. Sweet and cute. Humans would like to pet my fur and hug me and I would lick their faces. I would be part of a dog sled team. We would run in the snow pulling the heavy sled over snowy hills and over frozen lakes and down icy flat spots. Cold wind in our faces. As we zoomed across the snow. We would be the fastest team in the land. All the other huskies would love me. They would love to be around me. I would be loved by all the female huskies. They would all want me and fight over me.
But I would only love my owner. She would love me and take good care of me.
She would take me for walks
She would wash me in the tub.
She would hug and cuddle with me Avery night.
That would be the best part about being a husky.
Being a husky would be grate. But I’m not a husky and that’s to bad. Anyways riding in the car is fun one time we went to the mall. My girlfriend and me went into a store and I tried out hairbrushes on my girlfriend’s hair by brushing it in the store with the hairbrushes. I brushed her hair in public!!! Long sexy red hair being brushed in public! I found two hairbrushes that I liked to use to brush her hair with. So I used my create card to buy them. I snapped some photos of myself brushing her hair in public that day and of me putting her hair back into a ponytail. She latter posted the photos online for me only about 10% of my photos end up getting posted online by her or my other people who do things for me. I do know the sites web address but it will moust likely not be around by the time this is a book if it ever becomes a book. I might not even have the same girlfriend by the time this gets printed. Sorry cutie but the world works in a wear way sometimes. If my girlfriend dumps me I will have someone delete all the photos of her that are of more then just of her hair. I did that with my last girlfriend before the one I have as I Wright this. She had long brown hair but it shows up black on film. I don’t understand why it does.
I think it has something to do with the flash of the camera. But I don’t know why. But I think it’s got to do with the flash. I'm a real shutterbug! One time I used 16 rolls on my girlfriend in one day. Two big boxes of 8 rolls of film. 4 roll just on photos of her silky long sexy hair. My girlfriend now is so much sexier then my last girlfriend. If I get dumped i'm shore that I will have a sexy girlfriend… But I hope never to get dumped! I don’t think I could take getting dumped but I don’t want to think about that right now. My girl friend is a big girl. I love big girls because they’re more fun to cuddle then a teddy bear. Even a teddy bear with secret long hair hidden under a baseball cap!!!! When me and my girlfriend where at the mall we “window shopped” for young cuties… Look but don’t touch…. No matter how badly you want to! There was lots of cutie there. We went into a pet store and there was a husky puppy it was so cute! That day at he mall was grate. My girlfriend and me had ice cream. I feed her the ice cream. I like to watch her eat. So sexy. We sat on a bench and I stroked her ponytail and I fell asleep with her ponytail in my hands. That happens a lot. It’s so sexy!!! The five of us went out to dinner that night and we all had stakes. My stake was good. We went back to her house and went to sleep because it was about 10:30 P.M by the time the day was over. The next day I went home. I went home and lay in bed stroking my teddy bears hair. I love that cute little longhaired teddy bear. It’s so darn cute. I love it so much. I love that she gave it to me. She ordered it off the Internet. Just for me. Its so darn cute I just love pulling that little hat off and watching its hair come down. It’s wearily kind of erotic in a way. Sexy longhaired teddy bear. Its hair feels good for fake hair . I don’t like being by myself. I hate myself so much! I went for a walk latter that day and worked on this book at the Maine state library now here I am board… I don’t know where to go with this book now.
I can’t keep talking about longhaired teddy bears can I??? It’s kind of odd. A guy should not really have a teddy bear anyways. Its not Manley or whatever. Screw that. My girlfriend gave it to me. And I love my girlfriend so they can go away! I don’t know what to do with my life anymore. Got any ideas ??? This book thing is a good idler it gives me something to do when i am not around my girlfriend Emily. I don’t know who would print this. I don’t know if anyone would print this as a book for me and if someone did who would buy it and read it. Maybe I will just have my girlfriend Emily will post it online someplace sometime if I can’t get it published someplace. Emily is my girlfriend’s name. She is a really hottie. She is a hot chubby redhead. she is just so dam sexy. I could just kiss her to death. I was born February 11 1984. I am 24 years old as of 2008.
Emily is 18 so she is kind of younger. 18 is young… But I have had younger… But lets not go there… Younger is better and cuter. Today we had a picnic lunch in “Capital Park” in Augusta Maine. I played a song I wrote for her on my acoustic guitar. She loved it. it was a very nice moment. We cuddled on the blanket. I cuddled with my head in her breast I had her tresses under my face because she it down and in fount of her. She had spared it accost her breast for me. Latter we went and watched the sunset at “River Front Park” in Augusta , Maine. It was a nice sunset. We where walking back when a ninja jumped out from behind a tree and shot at me with a crossbow. He fired a shot at me but I caught it in my hands stopping it from hitting me. I looked at the ninja and said, “fast but I am faster and now you must die… So we will now fight to the death with swords!” I removed my sword from the sheath. it was a cane sword. It looks like a cane but it has a hidden sword inside it. The ninja got his sword from the sheath on his back. We battled blade on blade. It was a grate battle. Sparks came from the blades as they hit each other. The battle was long. I got the upper hand and killed him with a stab to the hart. After I killed him Emily said “if it was not for your lighting fast swordsmanship I would have lost you.. You’re the love of my life. My hero!” I looked into her eyes and said “Anything for my lady.. You safety was the only thing in my mind as the ninja and I battled to the death… He was a good enemy.. It was a shame to kill him…”
She looked lovingly into my eyes then kissed me.
I woke up when my girlfriend Emily was shaking me. I had fallen asleep it had been a dream. I had not had a ninja fight after all. It had been a good dream I had told Emily about it as we walked back to my apartment. I felt like being frisky so when we got ready for bed I had my girlfriend Emily sit back to me on the bed and I let down her hair and stoked he hair and kissed her on the neck. Then I got one of the hairbrushes we had got at the mall a couple of weeks ago and brushed her long silky hair. I Put my face into her hair and smelled its smell. It smells so nice. I stroked her silky hair. I love her hair it is nice and silky and thick. I love to stroke her sexy long thick hair. I brushed her hair up into a ponytail for her so she was redy for bed. We went to bed. I feel asleep fast like I always do when I have Emily next to me. I woke up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom. As I went back to bed I saw police lights outside I went on my porch to see what was going on. The cops were arresting one of my neighbors. I don’t know why I don’t talk to them anyways. Moust of my neighbors don’t know me but all of my neighbors hate me. But my neighbors can eat crap. I was happy that it was one of my neighbors being arrested and not me. I went back inside and played with Emily’s ponytail as she was asleep. I love her ponytail and her hair so much. I love her so much also. I love all of her. And there is a lot of her to love. She is a sexy plus sized redhead with long silky hair! I love having someone to cuddle up to. I love her a lot. And she knows it a lot more now then a couple of weeks ago. She is a real hottie! Redheads are hot. I enjoy them. I like brunettes a lot more.
I love Emily for more then just her hair!
I know it may not seem like it because of how much I talk about her hair but it is true.
Anyways.. I love to just sit and watch Emily around the apartment. She sits using her computer with her hair down over the back of the computer chair. I love being in bed with Emily after she just showered. The smell of her damp hair is nice. She is very nice to me and knows about my past. It don’t bug her that my hart is not 100% hers. I am still in love with a girl I known and dated back in 2006 that ended badly for me. I have people trying to brainwash me into not feeling how I feel about the girl I dated in 2006. That makes me mad. They will not brainwash my brain into thinking what they want me to think. They can eat shit. Emily knows all of it and why it happened and it don’t bug her. Sometimes she see me checking out a younger cutie but it don’t bug her she just reminds me that she is here and that she is mine and that I don’t need anyone but her. She keeps me as safe as she can keep me. Emily and me get along good. It’s very hard to be with me and I know that. Most woman would have dumped someone like me the first time they seen me look at someone I should not have looked at. That has happened in the past and it really hurt me when it did. I know that I am not easy to love. I don’t know how she does it and I hope that it doesn’t become too much for her. Emily likes the same movies I like. She likes the same television shows I like. She has some of the same DVDs that I have. She loves to cuddle and be cuddled and she loves that I love to play with her hair. She loves to be in photos and post them online to show off how much we love each other. If we are out someplace and someone makes fun of me because of my past she will verbally rip them a new asshole. I love it when she makes someone cry. It is so funny.
We have a deal that I get to kiss her on the cheek for Avery time that I just stand there when someone said a bad word at me. Avery time someone calls me the “S-name” and I just stand there I get a “Paint Brush” that night. A “Paint Brush” is when she uses her ponytail like a “Paint Brush” on my cheek. We don’t put paint on it but you get the idea.
One time when we went to the mall we ran into someone I know and it was so bad I got to kiss Emily 8 times and got two “Paint Brush” that night. So it was ok. That time my buddy Otto was with us. He is a cool dude. He has been my best friend since 1999. So. About 10 years. Emily thinks he is cool also. I’m happy that she likes Otto. I don’t think I would know what to do if she did not like Otto. Otto joined the navy I don’t know where he is right now. Otto and me did a lot of cool things we went to New York and to New Orleans and went camping up near Canada. Otto brag me to New York in the summer of 2005 on a whim and it was a grate trip… New York was not how I pictured it. It was better! We drove into town like rock gods descended from heaven! The streets where paved with gold and money rained from the sky! It was beautiful all the bright lights.
Otto’s 1969 Buick skylark could really kick it. It had been a 5-hour drive. We drove thorough time square it was beautiful all the bright lights. I felt very happy. We went to Otto’s house in long beach long island. We where so tiered from the drive that we just crashed for the night. The next day we went into the city. We walked around the city and went to places that real new Yorkers go to. Like “Ray’s Pizza” and so on. It got dark and Otto brag me to a club it was a club of big girls and men who liked big girls. Otto is not into big girls but he knows I am so he went as a wingman. The club was full of big beautiful woman! I went and got a beer and walked around. This redhead and her buddy started talking to me and soon we where dancing on the dace floor. I danced with both of them. They leth the club with Otto and me at 1 P.M that night. Otto had found the only skinny girl in the club. We went back to Otto’s place. I unfolded the sofa bed and they both layer down and I got in the middle of them. I was the meat in a Big Girl sandwich!!!! It was nice in there. Both girls where about 300 LBS!!! So that’s 600 pounds in the bed plus me at 160 LBS 760 LBS in the bed!! They went home in the morning. When I went to put the bed away I saw that we had bent the bed frame a lot.
It did go back into its place. Otto and me went to Coney Island that day and went on some rides. It was a lot of fun. We went on the big Ferris weal called the Wonder Wheel.
We drove bumper cars at a place called “Eldorado”. That was a lot of fun. We had hotdogs from Nathan’s famous hot dogs. Nathan’s is right near “Eldorado”. So it was not a long walk. At “Eldorado” there is a sign that said, “Bump your ass off”. That was funny to me. We went back to Otto’s and we crashed. I did not even try to unfold the bed. I just crashed on the sofa. Otto fell asleep in a lazy boy. The next day Otto and me sat around the house watching Television. Television in New York is odd because they have little news updates during all the Commercial Brakes about traffic and stuff. The sun started to go down so Otto and me got ready for are last night out. We had gone out for lunch at noon to the long island White Castle. But we wanted to go to Hooters tonight.
Otto and me got a beautiful Asian woman as are waitress. She had beautiful long hair and Otto got her to let me stroke it. I have lots of photos of my New York trip in my safe at my mom’s house but no one will ever see them. I never posted them online and I never will!! Otto snapped 7 photos of me stroking the hair. God it was nice!!! Otto and me had fun that night and then we went back to Otto’s and crashed. The next day we got the house set to leave and we went back to Maine. That was a good trip. I will get to our other trips latter. I want to get back to talking about my cutie pie Emily. Halloween 2008 was nice Emily wanted to go trick or treating for me because I can’t go myself because it’s illegal. We painted her face to look like a kitty cat and she went out and got candy for me. She looked so cute painted up as a kitty cat. She was a cute kitty cat. I petted her like a kitty cat when she got back and she made purring sounds for me! It was so cute!
Emily can be so much like a little girl at times. It’s so darn cute and I love her so much she is my little girl and I am her daddy. Besides Emily my life is really hard. I never have food of drinks when I am hungry so I got to go out and get it when I need it with my food card and I hate walking to the store sometimes I don’t eat for a day or more just because I don’t want to walk in the cold to the store to get food to eat. But I am always hungering also. I am hungry right now but I forgot my food card at home and I want to keep wrighting because I am here and I been wanting to work on this book for a week but my mind would not let me get the stones to come in here because of all my paranoia about the Maine state library. Sometimes I think the Liberians read my wrighting by remoteing into the floppy drive of the computer I am on and copy the file and read it. I hope that is just me being paranoia..