Oh wow thanks for that insight Phil - you are right, while i am Indian but a much more modern outlook to life... considering we dont have any traditional binds/bounds to religion or family...atleast thats how we live it...i may be able to sell the idea....but i fear the act will follow before talking...

I realized how bad i am at writing out the details... but truly i have not seen a better looking goddess than Rekha... quite like her sister she is short... about 5 feet 2 at best...(i am about 6 feet 4) ... butter,brownish-black weighty silk..that when looped in a loose bun near her neck makes this fat silk ball..that pulls down any weight,tie and/or clip to make it look like its destaging...down.... Unlike Maya...Rekha pushes the buttons a bit more aggressively......and i am hyper aware of my boundaries... yet its not possible to look away .. when you have that eye challenging experience....where words flow without words in between 2 people...

anyway..i appreciate the response already! i am bad at writing so i hope to keep you a part of my journey..i havent done this before so i like it to keep my conv in this thread vs email (for those who are interested).

Hope you all have a nice day